Tuesday, April 25, 2006
In Over My Head
Tonight was my first paid gig for photos. I got the call to cover the event at about 3 this afternoon and was supposed to be there at 7 for a press conference for the Cliffs (an overly expensive golf course). I was running late and got caught in traffic, I show up and they say the conference started at 6:30! I wigged out (mentally), my first job and I screw it up. I couldn't believe it, he said 7! So some other people were going in and so I slid in with them and I got my photos. Apparently Gary Player (famous golf guy known as "the Gary Player") is building a custom golf course at the Cliffs. Well I went to a cocktail party after and there were people everywhere, I had no idea what to do. I couldn't get my pictures, another photographer got me to the front and I got my shots and as I'm leaving Cheech Maron is blocking the door! I was like, "excuse me, excuse me." Finally, I got through. I realized I'm over my head.
So for the next couple of months I'm doing a get out of the bubble campaign. There are two projects I want to work on. First, I want to do a black and white photo essay on a night fire fighter team. I want to travel to fires with them and document their lives. I also want to do a photo essay called "in the wide." It would be a documentation of the life in it's encompassing form. To view life as the people in it and surroundings creating it. A true color and passionate story about living in our world. So with both I'd hope to get published, but more get a good looking portfolio. I want to go to Kentucky and it's less a want and more a "I will." This is a I'm going to do it.
Alright, peace out.
posted by shark_maul @ 4/25/2006 08:40:00 PM
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
How did i get here?
Sometimes I ask, how did I get here. The answer is usually minorly more complex than the question. I think it could be that sometime I can't grapple with the truth of my situation. I look at where I am now and wonder how God blessed me so much. Kayla and I went to Barnes and Noble last night and read kids books to each other, it was a time for us to talk and hang out. But I wonder how was I chosen to be with someone who views reading kids books in Barnes and Noble a great date. It's been a blessing, but now that I wonder how I got here to school without having to pay and how I ended up looking at a new school, I wonder how will I get there. Going to Kentucky is going to be hard, very hard. New life, new landscape, new church, new people, far from home. But like any other situation God will take care of me and prepare my way and give me the needed troubles to make me ready when I get there.
posted by shark_maul @ 4/19/2006 09:45:00 AM
Saturday, April 08, 2006
A Rock...or Something.
Last night I went with a few friends camping. First, I've never ever camped before. Second, I'm not really your outdoorsy type. Third,...ok I don't have a third.
We had MRE's (military food) for dinner and it was amazing. Now it was like the chimichangas I eat in the dorm but I was amazed. I watched Brad take the packet add water and magically after leaning the packet on "a rock...or something" (it actually said that on the packet) I had insta beef enchilada. I ate it with a spoon out of a bag...I have seen the light and it was good. The fact that we can make boiling water out of adding water to a plastic bag amazes me. There isn't any spiritual depth to speak of at this moment for last night.
Also, a tornado was supposed to come through and kill us all...it didn't. We did prepare last will and testament videos though. Sheila filmed us as we said or (not so) last words.
posted by shark_maul @ 4/08/2006 02:57:00 PM
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
Have fun~Be safe.
Growing up I had a few things happen when I left the house. First, mom would say, "be safe." Dad would say, "have fun." To this day they both joke about the differences in their personalities.
I think at times it would seem one is a redundant phrase. I don't see myself even as a child as conciously being "unsafe" unconciously that's differnt but I would never try to be dangerous.
As the years pass I think one without the other would have rendered me weak if I'd obeyed to phrase to the letter. If I lived a life in search of safety I would never had a revolution in Romania. I would have played it safe and got a summer job. Safety would have become my fall back net where I cower.
But had I lived a life in search of just fun I would have been equally as weak. I would bounce through my days trying to find ways to be happy. I would become so fickly at my decisions because each one would be based upon my personal gain of momentary joy rather than other people's lifetime gain of wisdom and knowledge and grace.
So a public thank you to two wonderful parents. I vaguely remember it but it's worth trying to say again. If I had to pick my parents I'd pic you two. (I think that is some variation on what I said as a kid)
posted by shark_maul @ 4/05/2006 09:39:00 AM
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Times.
There are times where my personality catches up to me. I think I have it all figured out and I've got no changes to make and I realize I'm still only a handful of steps into the journey.
I'm not good at compliments. The other day I had 2 people tell me I was smart, it's possible this is true but I would rather live under the assumption I'm average. Being average means I don't have any room to judge. I can say, "you know I'm not great nor crap," and that is it. No more. I don't get a "I'm better than you" complex or anything. I like to be average...even if I'm not.
Sometimes I can see people and make judgements about them without knowing them. I see their actions and make a broad sweeping judgement. Unfortunately, I do this often whether it be about people's work or whatever it is. It's not a, "my work is better" but a "you have more potential."
I guess in essence these were things that I needed to say because I'm having trouble dealing with them with myself. So maybe a little blow-off will help. Love ya'll guys catch ya later.
posted by shark_maul @ 4/04/2006 09:23:00 AM
Monday, April 03, 2006
My Loyal Mac Buddies.
I know some of you out there are mac dorks like me and want to uninstall files. So run over to www.maczot.com and get the new appzapper.
posted by shark_maul @ 4/03/2006 09:09:00 AM
Sunday, April 02, 2006
Dusty Music.
The past week or so I along with the rest of the house have been listening to old school music. We've been listening to the music we grew up on, the soothing tunes of Will Smith or overly poppy Nine Days. Most of these songs have seen better days but that's alright. We all love them no less.
I think it's interesting to see how people deal with those old songs, most of the time they are more memories than songs. Sometimes we can't listen to certain ones because of the connotation it received in the past.
I apologize for my quietness on here, I know many of you read it on a daily basis and I'm grateful for that. It's sorta like I've talked about in the past, if you put God first those other things fall into line. The past week I've had trouble keepin' my priorities in line. Sadly for only the second time this week, I'm happily off to do my quiet time.
posted by shark_maul @ 4/02/2006 11:56:00 PM
